Uncategorized – Red Bottomed Harlot Part Duex

Tears, revisited

Once upon a time, tears were the expectation. Before I entered the spanking scene, I thought this was what a successful punishment looked like. I’d read stories where misbehavior was met with unrelenting punishment by way of spanking, resulting in tears. In my daily life, I’m embarrassed by crying. It’s something that I’ve worked on,Continue reading “Tears, revisited”

Going Forward.

I am intentionally writing this here because I need my thoughts to exist in a place other than the kink social media black hole that is Fetlife. If you have any questions about who the person is I am referencing, please do not hesitate to ask. I’m not part of the old guard. A lotContinue reading “Going Forward.”

Illustrations of Shame

CW:sexual assault *Note: I started writing this over a month ago, hence the time changes. It’s fine. It’s going to be a hit, but you need to relax. 1. I know people that won’t even say the word. I’ve (mostly) made peace with it but there are times when I’m afraid there will be aContinue reading “Illustrations of Shame”

Weekend Interruptus

“Before you butcher the words to another song can we at least get in the car?” Amber laughed in the bathroom as she meticulously applied gold pigment to her inner eyelid. Carrie sat on the kitchen counter, kicking her feet. She didn’t know the lyrics but that didn’t stop her from improvising in tune with theContinue reading “Weekend Interruptus”

Post Quarantine Wishlist

I spent so much of this time last year falling in love. This time I’m so conscious of its absence, like the phantom feeling you get when you’re not wearing a ring. I am grateful to have many people in my life to love just as I am grateful for that falling feeling, IContinue reading “Post Quarantine Wishlist”

Hit me baby one more time

I first became familiar with the power of schoolgirl imagery when I saw the Baby One More Time music video. I knew it was scandalous, that my parents would not approve, but I was enthralled. It was where I wanted to be. I consumed whatever media I could find that brought all of my unrealisticContinue reading “Hit me baby one more time”

Twenty

I wonder if she remembers what she said. At one of my earlier parties, I attempted to introduce myself to a woman and she said “I know who you are, you’re the calmer one of the two black girls”. At the time, I didn’t know a lot of other black people in the scene, especiallyContinue reading “Twenty”

Kink in the Era of Social Distancing

The other day I asked someone “what if we forget how to get spanked?” It is ridiculous, and it’s also questionable that I’m saying “the other day.” Unless you are on a different planet (hello, welcome), you are probably in some way affected by COVID-19. It’s scary. My office is closed so for a whileContinue reading “Kink in the Era of Social Distancing”

Bookworm

Recently I had a conversation with my boyfriend where I admitted what must be my most ridiculous spanko related thought. I recalled a time when I was sitting in a bookstore and someone asked me about the area – directions, fun things to do, etc. I helped him, but then he asked me if IContinue reading “Bookworm”

Maintenance.

Six years ago, if you’d ask me what the most important of my fetish was, Id probably say “spanking. Duh.” Nowadays I’m thinking about autonomy. When I did that thing that so many of us do where I looked up words in the dictionary, I would look up “punishment”. I associated punishment with spanking, obviously,Continue reading “Maintenance.”